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Saturday, November 7th, 2009
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1:35 am - About time
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My god. I was intending on updating ages ago, but as usual just never got round to it. But it's late, i'm still not very tired. So i may as well do it now
The most important thing that happened since last time is that 6th form (College) started. It's much harder than I thought it was going to be D: The Music and iMedia isn't too bad at all, i can handle that. But it's the Biology that's bad. There's just so much to learn. So much to remember, so many notes to take, so many diagrams to draw. And soon enough we're going to start writing essays, and i've got a feeling there are going to be many of them too. Although it is hard work, it's extremely interesting. It's amazing, things that are so tiny, are so complex. There are so many organelles in one cell. Then to think there are zillions, billions, millions, what ever, loads of cells for one person. We've been studying Plants and Water with one teacher, and Cells with another. There are way too many things to learn about just water it's unbelievable. And rather boring. The plant side is more interesting. We've been looking at the phloem, xylem, source, sink, and other things like transpiration, translocation. But learning about cells has been the most interesting so far. Even just studying the membrane for a cell, there is so much to learn. Even though I make the subject sound great. It's just... hard. Maybe too hard for me. I don't know. I intend on sticking at it though and really trying to remember everything, and actually put effort into it.
So far iMedia hasn't been too interesting at all, just studying things like copyright and how to present proposals for contracts. But the next module is on photography which sounds alot more interesting. Even iMedia is harder than i thought it'd be. But it's manageable.
Music is also very interesting. Not as much about actually playing music, more of the industry. And the sound engineering side. Still as I said, interesting.
Moving on from the 6th form subject, I've been ill recently. It wasn't bad at all, only lasted for a week. But i completely lost my voice at one point. And just felt horrible. But that's all clearing up now, and even though i seem to loose my voice a bit every now and then, it's definitely starting to clear up ;D But it's really just brought me down. Ever since the summer holidays I've been going out alot, just doing things rather than sitting indoors. But being ill i've been forced to stay inside. Well I say forced but I really mean told to stay inside. But I miss going out. And it's only been a week. But i'm going out tomorrow. Looking forward to it ;D
Another thing, I've rekindled my love for Kurt Cobain and Nirvana. I'm tempted to read his biography again. Or maybe buy another biography. I really am just fascinated by his life. Even though it is very sad, it's just... amazing.
And the last thing is about someone I met online. Her name is Kristi. And she's just awesome ;D I've been talking to her for about 2 months now. The time has just flown by. But I really like her. Y'know, really really like her ;) But it just seems weird because she lives far away. And i'm young, and I don't have money. So i'm not able to go visit her or anything. So even though I know it's pointless to have an attraction to her I still do. She says she feels the same way back. But it's all just weird. I love talking to her though. Just brings a smile to my face everytime we talk ;D
I lied, that's not that last thing. This is though, I promise ;) I've been trying to sing. I have a bad singing voice, and it's often out of tune. But i've really been trying D: So I decided to be able to hear how bad I actually am, I've been recording myself doing covers. I've only done two Nirvana songs. And it's going ok. It's not good. But it's not as bad as some other people I've heard sing as well. So I'm not too annoyed about it. It can only get better ;D
Anyway, I suppose it's time to go, and i really should try and get some sleep. Even though I know I'm going to lie awake for another hour atleast. So goodnight
;D
current mood:  Content
current music: Nirvana - Pennyroyal Tea
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| Tuesday, September 1st, 2009
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2:53 am - It's late
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It's early in the morning. And i've just finished watching a film. I was about to turn the laptop off. But found winamp was still running. And saw Gorillaz in the playlist. I can't resist some Gorillaz.
The laptop is new by the way. Fucking love it. Got it for my birthday. Which was fun by the way. I had a good actual birthday. And fun partys too.
Not much has changed since the last update. The band is still in a rut atm. I don't know what's happening. One thing that happened is i got in my GCSE results. And unfortunatly. Didn't do that well
I got lots of C's, 1 E in Catering but i don't care about that. D in R.E And 1 B. That was in Biology. Meaning Music was a C. Which i'm dissapointed about. But i'll get over it
More importantly. I've been talking to lexi again :)
She's broken up with Tom. And even though i now feel bad about it. It's great to talk to her again. I'm meeting up with her on Sunday. Just to cheer her up. I doubt anything will even happen between us. But the fact i'm spending time with her is good enough for me. We're having a picnic. Because thats one of the many things that make her happy. :) It's making me happy too.
Another thing i'm going to mention is my music taste. It seems to of changed alot. I'm really into Dubstep. It's a genre of music. Just... really heavy bass line. Fucking awesome. And i'm also really into the Gorillaz now. They're just brilliant. Mixing rap in a bit too. Fucking immense mayteee. I think i'm inlove with the song All Alone - Gorillaz. It really is amazing. Don't even know why. I just love it.
Well I'm glad I've updated. But i don't want to stop typing yet. Because the song isn't over. I guess i'll just keep typing as if I'm talking. And ranting... I'm really looking forward to meet with Lexi. It's sunday. :D Should just be a laugh. I am definitely looking forward to it :)
You know what. I might read through some old entries anyway. So i'm off
Goodnight Everyone.
current mood: peaceful
current music: Gorillaz - All Alone
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| Friday, July 24th, 2009
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6:53 pm - Bordem.
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I've been so bored recently. There's just nothing to do. Well. Nothing fun to do. And everyone else seems to be too busy to talk to me now. I talk to people that I used to talk to all the time. And they will do the standard "hey how're you", and then that'll be it. I haven't had a good long conversation for a while. And Morgan that I used to talk to alot went on a trip. And came back the other day. She said hi. Then went again. And hasn't been online since. Erugh. Someone have a decent conversation with me please D:
Went to see Perfect Alibi the other night. They're were really good. Much better than I actually expected them to be. Just turned out to be a really enjoyable night. That seems to be the only big thing that's happened recently. I suppose it's because I don't have any money to do anything with. I can't wait to start College.
I'll finally be getting some money in. And then i'll just have something to do. Even if it is studying. But hey at least I'll be studying stuff that I enjoy. And then when I'm not studying i'll have some money to do something fun with. :D Ah fun. I miss you.
It used to be the band, that kept me from dying of bordem. But even that seems to of taken a turn for the worse. It's suprisingly Joe thats the biggest dissapointment at the moment. He just seems as if he can't be bothered anymore. We have a gig this sunday. And i texted joe asking when our band practice was going to be because he said he was going to book it. And i got a reply saying. "We're not doing band practice because we have work. Well I do anyway" which is bollocks. He doesn't work everyday of the week. He did the same with the prom. And Weymouth. I wanted to stay over night in weymouth. And it was all planned. Until he suddenly decided two days before we left that he wasn't going to stay. Because he had work. He didn't have work the next day. But guess who did. His girlfriend Lucii. For the prom we were going to play, then he suddenly decided that we wern't going to play, again about a week before, because he said he wanted to "enjoy" it and be the audience for once. Again. I wonder where he got that idea from. Lucii. I can even picture her saying it. "Well, why don't you just not play this time." It's so fucking anoying. And now if the gig is bad on sunday. It'll be because we haven't practiced since the weymouth gig. And i expect it's because the days off he has, he wants to be with Lucii. And he was the one saying that he wanted to get rid of Mils because he didn't have any effort with the band. And no determination. It's just bullshit. It really annoys me that she can be that much of an influence on him.
We have another gig as well, on the 21st of August. I wonder if we'll practice before then. I know that when we do as well joe will be saying "ohh i'm really looking forward to this practice!". Then he'll just end up all annoyed at the end of the night because Mils isn't good enough for him.
Ugh. Yeah, i'm off. Still got nothing to do though.
Byes ;D
current mood:  bored
current music: Pink Floyd - Sorrow
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| Sunday, June 14th, 2009
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2:15 pm - Birthday
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It's Mum's birthday today. Happy birthday to her. Vicky and Ashley are coming over soon I think. Should be a nice evening.
The band had another gig on wednesday. Went well as usualy. Was still rather angry at the end of it. The sound we got on stage was absoloulty terrible. Couldn not hear Tom's guitar and any vocals. I just heard Luke's guitar, the drums, and a little of my bass. Then our set had to be cut short as well because the other bands that night took too long. But the songs we played still went well. We also got plenty of compliments after we came off stage.
Anyway, today was just a quick update, so I'm going again.
Laters people ;)
current mood: cheerful
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| Wednesday, May 27th, 2009
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12:50 pm - Evenin'
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Hey there. Been a while since i updated. The day before our gig. Which went well by the way, well i thought it did. And we got good feedback too. Really had a good night. We also sold cd's there, making £112 from sales. This pleased me alot :D Getting money from doing something that i would happily do for no charge anyway just makes it seem even better. The band hasn't really been doing much since that gig. We have had one band practice since, which went very well. 3 new songs came out of it. One of them we all really like. It's just one of those songs that make you feel... good. We were going to have a practice today, but thats been called off. MY FAULT
Yesterday I stayed at Joe's with Lucii and Kate. And Joe too obviously. We decided to have a curry for dinner, which sounded fine to me. I'm not really too fussy what i eat, as long as i don't find it revolting, I'll eat it. So after about 4 hours of planning this meal, and finally getting it ready, we started to eat. All was well. Until I attempted to eat some curry, and Joe did something funny. I inhaled a large piece of chicken, and it wouldn't budge. I straight away ran to get some water to try and swallow it. This just made things worse, it was quite definitely stuck in my throat, and was not budging. This is where i started to panic and found it harder to breathe. At 1st everyone was laughing, because of the noise i made when i 1st tried to swallow the chicken. I'll admit, it was a hillarious sound. Soon enough Joe's parents had realised something was going on and Lisa (Joe's mum) saw that i was choking. Luckily for me she's been a nurse for 21 years, and straight away took control of the situation. She grabbed me and took me to the toilet. Trying to get me to cough up the chicken. Then realised it was serious and told Gary (Joe's dad) to call an ambulance, and Joe to call my mum. I just kept choking and choking and nothing was coming out. I was heaving and struggling to breathe. This had put alot of strain on my face xD and it seems like some blood vessels had burst. This is the bit that really scared me. When i saw blood. Luckily Lisa was still there telling me the blood was from my nose and it was nothing to worry about. The ambulance was on it's way, as i was still choking and coughing. Pretty much as soon as the paramedics walked in the door, somehow the chicken piece got dislodged and fell out. Leaving me all shaken up, and with an increadible head ache. One hell of a day for me. But all was well afterwards. It was only later that night when i started to get a head ache again. But i didnt really take much notice of it, and managed to get to sleep. It was when i woke up this morning when felt how bad the head ache was. It must be the worst pain i've felt in a long time. I still have a little bit of a head ache, but tablets have helped me out :]
Other than that. Everything has been a bit boring and slow. But nicely chilled. I've started exams. And almost finished them, I only have three left. I feel quite confident about the ones i've already taken. But i'm sure the ones i've still go will be just as good. I finish school on the 16th of June. But not many of the school days i have left really include many lessons i still need to attend. So i'm not going to school as much anymore xD. Infact it's actually quite scary how close I am to leaving school. But still kind of exciting.
Thats all i have to say today. Hopefully i'll update soon. I've still been reading everyone else's posts. But i just havent been bothered to post one of my own.
Byess :D
current mood: Chilled
current music: Long day - Matchbox Twenty
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| Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
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9:31 pm - Hey thar!
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Hey. Suppose it's time for an update. You'll probably get another one tomorrow anyway as thats when i planned to do this. But i've got strict orders to update now. So here goes.
It's all been band band band recently. Crazy times. I've been playing the bass so much this week my finger tips are solid. But feel like they will explode. So i hope i should be able to survive tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to it. And i'm sure it go well. As long as my fingers last. But yeah. I'm sure it'll be fine ^^
Got another few songs recorded yesterday. Which are going onto the cd. And we'll be selling them tomorrow at the gig. £3 a CD with 7 tracks. One of which i play the drums to. I think we called it vans.
Anyway. I'm quite excited. But also quite nervous but thats to be expected. I think everyone else is coping fine. And our band practice today went perfectly so there aren't any doubts at the moment.
Thats all thats really happened. Nothing on the Alex front.
Oh I finished the Full Metal Alchemist series again. 51 episodes in 5 days ;D
It's just so epic!
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Ambulance LTD - Stay Where You Are
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| Wednesday, April 15th, 2009
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11:34 pm - (:
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Helloes
I've been told to do this update =o
aha :]
Not much has been happening since the last entry to be honest. The band thing seems to be getting a little awkward and panicy. It used to be alot more relaxed. And we'd joke about alot. Now it seems to be "WE NEED TO GET THIS SONG DONE. LETS DO IT TONIGHT NO MESSING AROUND!". I actually broke a sweat at the last band practice.
We have another one next week. Then we're squeezing another 2 in in the week of our gig. Along with a recording session again. It's going to be a extremely stressy, nervous and hectic week. -_-"
Otherwise nothing has been happening. It's the easter holidays. Did really do anything for easter. I've just been chilling out and relaxing.
Oh one thing i suppose. The Alex situation has gotten worse. She's just completely ignored me now. And won't talk to me. So i suppose i'll do the same :] I'll just leave her alone. Let her do what she wants for a bit. And i'll do what i want.
I've been talking to an American girl called Katie that i met online. On a hillarious online teen dating site. haha. It's so crap its funny. I went on just joking around. And met Katie who is absoloutly brilliant :] Been staying up till around 2-3am talking to her though. But still haven't been tired in the day time. Strange. Ever since the easter holidays have started i've just been wanting to get up early. But i've been trying my hardest to lie in and it's pointless. I just lie in my bed, awake from about 8 to 10.
Thats all for now
Goodnight
current mood: happy
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| Wednesday, April 1st, 2009
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10:23 pm
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Just gunna write
www.myspace.com/milsmalone
It's got recordings and gander date. And details.
only got 4 songs recorded.
I don't feel that great.
Byes
current mood: bored
current music: Dusty - Soundgarden
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| Wednesday, March 25th, 2009
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6:43 pm - Unwanted 4
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Hey. Just let people know i'm not feeling ill anymore.
And i don't generally feel bad anymore. I still have moments. But it's better
I still have a massive unwanted feeling from Alex. And i keep seeing how she "prefers" Tom. That pisses me off.
Just a quickie today.
Byes
Oh yeah. We're going to be recording a demo album soon. It's costing us £50 for two hours of recording time. We think we'll get about 7 songs on there. Should be good, I'll let you guys know how it goes.
And we've got a gig. The Gander. 30th of april. Be there.
current mood:  Blank
current music: Ocean - John Butler Trio
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| Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
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6:41 pm - Unwanted 3
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I'm ill today. And have been at home. It's probably not necessary but i really don't feel great at all.
I texted Alex the other day, asking why we don't talk anymore, and quoted a text which said she thought i was her best friend and she couldn't afford to lose me. So she agreed we should start talking.
So i've really been trying to get conversations going, but all her replies are stupid, only one word answers or something. It's fucking annoying. It's as if she's only talking to me because i asked her to. Which really isn't what i want. But now I can't let it go. Just the idea of us starting to get close again is so amazing i can't let it slip. It's horrible. I just want her to be talking to me, because she has an interested on how i'm feeling. What i'm up to. But the only person who seems to be getting her attention. Is Tom.
That makes me feel 1stly really jealous. And really pissed off. I wouldn't be overly bothered if it was some other guy i didnt know. But it's not. It's tom.
I've just genreally noticed less interested in me by other people aswell. Lucy hardly talks to me anymore. Joe spends more times with Lucii. Everyone that hangs out with me and Joe. Prefers Joe.
I get stupid images of the future alot. I know it's really sad stuff. But I do. I can sometimes picture myself in my own apartment. Cuddled up with Alex. Watching the nightmare before christmas. It was in a dream of mine today. Alex was pregnant.
I find myself doing lots of stupid things like watching films. Just to bring back memories. I watched Curious George today. Which is a kick ass film btw. But i only really watched it to remember when me and Alex came back here and we were upstairs. Just a memory of holding her is good enough. I'm fucking obsessed.
I'm going to leave it at that for this entry. Or I'm going to start really rambling on and it'll just be a pointless entry.
Bye.
current mood: Lonley & Ill
current music: Doesn't Remind Me - Audioslave
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| Friday, March 13th, 2009
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10:35 pm - Unwanted 2
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So. It's Comic relief again. With all the stupid music and comedy. All the same clips show again and again. But i'm not even thinking about that much. Still feeling unwanted.
I feel like more of the people that i used to talk to so much. I don't talk to anymore. I've started talking to Tom Britten again though. Don't know if that's good or not.
I saw Franz Ferdinand on monday night. I'll just say It was AMAZING because i'm tired and can't be bothered to go into much detail.
I had my own gig on wednesday. It went ok. We decided that dad wouldn't bother coming because it looked as if there were no seats and it would of been awkward for him. Mum didn't come because it'd mean she'd be by herself all night. And Ashley couldn't come because of the amount of time he had between coming back from Adele's and getting to Germany. Vicky didn't come because. I don't know. But anyway. Dad could of came because there were seats in the end. Which means mum could of also come because she wouldn't of been alone. But anyway. The gig went ok. We lasted about 30 minutes. Which was the target. Performing all nine of our own songs. And one "Whoreka" cover called 'Auntie John'. That went ok since we hadn't rehearsed it in such a long time. After the gig i got plenty of compliments about the bass, even though i know i messed up plenty of times. Everyone seemed to like the music and enjoyed the sound because it's "different, fresh and original". This made me happy. I then stuck around to see "Looking Through Glass" Play. This is the band we were supporting. They were extremely good. And after they finished playing, they said they liked our set. And said we should do it again sometime. I'm definitely up for it.
I wish more people would talk to me.
I'm going to start writing a private diary as well now, so every secret won't go missed or forgotten because my memory is getting so bad.
I still intend on writing a song. If i do. It will be good.
Goodnight.
current music: Soundgarden - Burden in my Hand
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| Sunday, March 8th, 2009
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10:13 pm - Unwanted.
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I hate the feeling. Not wanted. Not cared about.
I know people are there, and people to worry about me. But I take those people for granted. And I shouldn't. I always get myself to focus on the other people I want to love me back, that don't. I feel bad. Feel stupid for forget about those people. Thank you if you read this. And you care about what I'm doing, and how i am feeling. Recently I've found myself alone, and thinking about these people that do love me. I just read a blog, and one entry was titled "Friends vs Acquaintances" and it talked about how sometimes the acquaintances you have are actually better friends than the people who you care about so much, and do so much for. I found that to be true the other day. When i was alone, and i was scared. Lucii called me. And she just talked to me until i felt better. Lucii. Of all the people i would of wanted to call me. She was the best person. Not thinking about her in the 1st place makes me feel stupid. She was fantastic, and I'll never forget that conversation. If she ever reads this. Thanks.
Music has seems to become more important to me each day. Every song I listen to now, I will listen to again, just so I can take in every lyric sang, every bass note played. Every slight variation of a chord. Music is the most amazing thing in the world. If you can even imagine a world without music. I think you should re think your life.
My band has got a gig on wednesday. If you live anywhere near Christchurch, and you are 16+ then please come along. It's the "Thomas Tripp Late n' Live" Doors open at 8. It's our 1st gig. We're supporting a band called "Looking Through Glass". They're really good, the lead man is "The Music Man" at school. Dave. He asked us if we could make it. And we took up the opportunity. It's going to be hard though. Dave asked us to play 40 minutes. Which we actually cannot do. So we got it down to 30 minutes. Even this will be hard. We haven't even been together for half a year yet. I don't think. But it'll all go ok i hope.
tomorrow I head off for london. I'm going to see Franz Ferdinand live. I'm not a particularly big fan. But the ticket was offered to me for free. So I'm not going to pass it up.
That's all i feel like writing now.
Bye
I want to write a song.
current mood: Blah
current music: Coldplay - Don't Panic
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| Saturday, February 21st, 2009
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12:01 am - A Quickie
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Just a quick update
Went to oxford on Tuesday, came back today. Twas quite nice, very peaceful. Just me, my sister, Mum and dad.
On thursday, my 8 year old cousin was dropped off, and he is staying at my Gran and Grandad's house until saturday. He really doesn't shut up. We were made to take him to the reservoir when me and Vicky went to take pictures of the sunset. It was quite a long walk down there in the 1st place, and then when we got there he wouldn't stop messing around. Then we decided it was time to go back, after taking pointless pictures of clouds infront of the sunset that we couldn't see. And he started to complain he couldn't walk. So i had to pick him up and carry him. Which was quite awkward. He was saying "I'm only three stone". I think he is also a liar. After i while i couldn't be bothered to carry him anymore, so it was Vicky's turn. And we kept taking it in turns until we just gave up and called mother to pick us up. She complained.
Anyway, it was still quite nice to get away from things. It's nice to have a change.
Now i'm home, fantastic to be talking to people again. ESPECIALLY LUCY ;) ;)
Thats all. I'll go into detail later when i'm not so tired.
current mood:  Tired
current music: Switchfoot - Company Car
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| Tuesday, February 10th, 2009
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| Friday, February 6th, 2009
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5:57 pm - So.
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I'm sat at home up at the computer. Then looking around on shitty websites like bebo. Where i always say things like "I don't care if i'm not in the 'top sixteen'". But when i say that, I lie. It's where i can see where people prefer other people to me. It hurts. But then you think. Hey. It's only a 'top sixteen'. But it still matters. Do bebo understand that they've made. This horrible thing. A place where you can rate your friends. And let people know they are better than other people. It's bullshit. Just about 2 minutes ago. I looked at a top 16, and i felt a horrible, disgusting, cold chill go up my spine. Looking at this person. And knowing, inside. I'd rate them so high. Better than nearly anyone else i have. And then seeing. That i'm so low down. It's horrible. And i hate it.
Another thing i have an urge to say. Is how people change. Depending on where they are, who they're with. Online, offline. I was with Alex the other day. And she was such an amazing person. When she was with me. Just me. When we saw Tom and Stuart. She suddenly changed. As if she didn't want anyone to see us together. Which makes me feel like shit. Like i'm not worthy to be with her. (she was the person i was talking about in the top 16 bit) And just when i tried to talk to her online. It's like she was ignoring me. I had to ask a question twice before she answered.
It's a shame. I've had such a fucking fantastic week. But thats suddenly made me feel. Kinda bad.
I would write about the week. But it's not aloud because i'm naughty.
current mood:  Angry
current music: Jimi Hendrix - Burning Of The Midnight Lamp
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| Thursday, January 29th, 2009
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8:06 pm - Music
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Music is nice.
I just found a new website, alot like last fm. I just prefer this. It's called Deezer. (www.Deezer.com). I've just just two really interesting bands. Completely different. But it's a nice change.
I'm only really updating to keep it as a habbit. Rather than something i have to force myself to do.
I'm going out on saturday with joe. Looking forward to that. It's been a while. Might take a few pictures again. Just generally relax. Have a laugh.
Oh. I'm feeling much better than i was in the last post by the way
Bye
current mood: Good
current music: The Decemberists - Los Angeles, I'm Yours
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| Sunday, January 25th, 2009
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9:33 pm - Note
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I don't feel fantastic.
I feel angry
I feel lonely
I feel annoyed
I feel frustrated
I feel stressed
I can't be bothered.
current mood: All of the above
current music: Nirvana - Lithium
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| Wednesday, January 21st, 2009
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8:54 pm - Time for an update.
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Minehead. I will mention it later on. If i can still be bothered.
Been doing loads of thinking about things recently. Just kinda realised that the next three years are uber important. I finish school this year. I'll have my GCSE's. All the ones i want. I hope. Oh I got a C in English and a C in math by the way :] Thats whats made me start thinking. I got a C in my english without doing any coursework what so ever. Which. I thought was rather impressive -SmugFace- But as i talked about it to mum. She made me realised that i could of done so much better. If i got all my coursework up to a B level. I could of got a high B. Or even an A. I doubt the A. But if i wasn't so lazy. Like i am. I could of done it. Same with math. If i just bothered to revise or something. I could of easily got a B. I really just need to stop being so lazy. And start actually revising. Doing work. Getting all my work as good as i can make it. I've got Literature and Maths statistics comming up in June. And we've started learning it at school. I really want to get myself atleast B's in these exams. With science i think things will be ok. I've only got Biology exams, which i've done now. Did one today. And i'm hoping i'll get at least a B in that. I better do anyway. 'Cause i always thought i pwned Biology. Got the other half of my R.E exam soon. Which should be easy enough.. it's R.E -_-'. If i fail that i'm gunna be pissed. Anyway. I only need 3 more GCSE's at a C level or higher. Thats this year anyway
Then next year will be Sixth Form. If i get my 5 GCSE's. Which i better do D: Then i'll be studying A level Biology, Music Technology, and iMedia. Which i really cannot wait for. Plus i get £30 a week from EMA if i attend every lesson of the week. Which will be awesome. 'Cause i will finally have money whenever i want it. Oh. Thats anothing i must stop doing. Going out and blowing my money on pointless things that will proberly ruin my life. But the point is. I can't wait for 6th Form. To stop doing subjects that bore me. And things i just cannot be bothered with. And start doing things i want to do. By this point i'll be able to get a moped. But i don't think i will lol. I'll just save money. £10 a week. And if i have money left over after a week. That'll also be saved. And then when i'm 17 get mum to teach me to drive. Revise for theory. Take the test. Then a bit later get a car. Only something super cheap. Just something i can say is mine. And is big. And useful. By the time i'm 17 i should be working. Only something shit though. It'll either be a corner shop or something like that. But the two i think i'd like to be in. Which is strange. But I'd either like to be working in Somerfield, or McDonalds. McDonalds because i've been there before. And i know my way around. Plus i also slightly enjoyed working there. I just remember everyone telling me that they also had the same plan in mind. To go there, get money. Then leave. But some of them had been there for 8 years. And still couldn't get out. And honestly. That slightly scares me. And i'd like to go to somerfield because i know the money is ok. And it's in between Collage and home. Which would be perfect. Plus it won't be hard work. Although mind end up being quite boring.
Then there will be the 3rd year. In this year i will turn 18. Which is obviously quite an important age because so many more things become legal. And i will be seen as an adult. I want to go to university. But i wouldn't want to go alone. I would only go alone if i could be in bournemouth uni. But i don't want to go there just for that reason. Plus i like the idea of moving away from bournemouth. And not being known. And kind of starting again. But i'd like to go with a friend that i already had. Someone to live with. Someone i can be with if i get lonley. I don't like the feeling of not knowing anyone. I can't stand it. But i like the idea of meeting new people. And i'd like to be meeting people with the same love and interests as me. I would hopefully be taking Music at a much higher level. And i'd love to be meeting people that are the same age as be. But are better than me at music. I don't like being the best. Doesn't give me anything to aim to beat. Another good thing about taking this course. Is by meeting people, getting new contacts it could help an awful lot when i try and actually go somewhere in a musical career. As i expect you know. It's not easy to make it as a musician. Especially with the amount of amazing talent out there now. You have to be good. Very good. But you also have to know the right people. And that course could help so much.
By this age i'd like to be working in a better job position. Not something serious. But something that will actually get me real money.
Anyway. This is all so far away. But it's all i can think about at the moment. Trying to picture my life in three years time. It all depends on my attitude. If i can be bothered to try. And i've said this to myself about 500 times before. I will try this year.
Ah. Minehead.
Honestly. I just did alot of thinking in minehead. The actually occasion didn't mean much to me. I didn't particually talk to the family. Just answered the questions they asked and said hello occasionaly. Being away from a computer. And an xbox. Was actually quite nice. I got some really nice music time. And i got to read. And got to think. I thought about Alex alot. And i've FINALLY realised i cba with her anymore. lol. Even though i've insulted her. And told her i love her. And told everyone i hate her. And told everyone i love her. I just cba anymore, and over the past couple of days i forgot she existed until she texted me. Saying.. something i cant remember. Then texted me again quoting pointless lyrics which didn't really mean anything at all. I realised how much i assosiate people with music while i was away. Just by playing one song. Floods of emotions come at me, and images, memories of old times. I'm amazed i didn't cry lol.
Anyway. My neck aches like hell. And i need to go sleepies soon 'cause i need teh sleeps.
Goodnight.
current mood: Motivated
current music: Switchfoot - Ammunition
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| Friday, January 2nd, 2009
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10:20 pm - Events
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Lots of thing have happened. And i do intend on writing about them. I just cannot be bothered. Maybe later.
New year was good. Can't remember a whole lot of it. Which sums up what it was like.
And i've been listening to lots of 3 doors down. Pretty much because i can't be bothered to scroll down
Anyway. I MUST write about minehead. Lots to write about there. I can't forget that
Bye
current mood: apathetic
current music: 3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone
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| Saturday, December 27th, 2008
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8:30 pm - 'Spose it's time for an update.
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Hello again. So christmas has gone. And now i'm looking forward to the new year.
Christmas was nice i suppose. Nothing particularly amazing happened. But it was still nice. Kinda had had 2 christmas' because Vicky and Josh could only come here on christmas eve. So we let them open their presents from us. And we got to open ours from them. I also got to open Guitar hero because Vicky wanted to play it :D
W1N
So we played lots of guitar hero and had a bit of music. Watched television. The general christmas things. Then the next day We had the real christmas. Opened the rest of our presents and checked them out. Then watched tv. Had dinner. And everything was normal again. lol. But christmas has never been anything that big. I don't ever remember a massive feast will everything available. Everyone sitting around, having a super time with the family. But it;s nice what we have anyway.
For christmas i got Guitar hero 3. It owns. And so do i now. lol. Anyway. Can't be bothered to type much today. Just thought i better update before i forget all about it again.
current mood: cheerful
current music: Livejournal - Mirrors on Shoes
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